Reflections and Realizations

The last week, well mainly the last few days, have been inspiring, reflecting, unknown, and grand. Life is this twisty, winding road of ups, downs, lefts, rights, and we are all just trying to make it to the finish line. Life is many, many things but one thing it should never be treated as is a game. Games are meant to be played, life is meant to be lived.

The thing about games is they are played to decided a winner and a loser. Now life shouldn't be treated as such because for anyone to win, someone has to lose. The hard thing to figure out is how can everyone cross that finish line feeling, not as a winner, but knowing they did their best. Some of that sounded way better in my head.

We are all just flying through space, on a big rock called earth, just trying to find out what we want to do with our lives. I'm 41 and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. Life seems like it crashes to halt at times but at the same time it keeps going. Believe me when I say, the older you get the faster time goes. One minute your in your 20's and don't have a clue about the world, and then bam your in your 40's wondering what happened to all that time. Then you realize, you still don't know what's going on.

We all want to find our spot, our happy spot, our life, our everything, but how do we get there? Ultimately it's up to each of us to live our best life, for us. It's not up to any of us to dictate anything about anyone else's life, well except if you have kids, then dictate they may not listen, I didn't, haha.

I may be crazy and cooky, mysterious and ooky, but I'm just me, being me. I've lived a hell of a life to this point and I'm going to continue to live a hell of a life. So many times I've been told that I'm living my life wrong, it's not the way someone else would do it, and that's fine, it's not their life to live. Me and only me can dictate how I live and that's called freedom. Like today, get up, make coffee, lounge for a bit, then out to my shop by 7:30. Other days I may lounge til noon, heck I may lounge all day, but ultimately it's a matter of what is best for me. I can go like a bat out of hell and not get anywhere, or take my time and know I did what I could.

My life, my equation, and my sum to figure out. Sure I get help along the way and I try to reciprocate that as much as I can. In the end I know it's up to me to live my life to the fullest, in whatever form that takes. It's my life as a dreamer, a thinker, and a sometimes insightful sob. Living my life to the fullest, fills up my spark, shines my light, and maybe my outlook will help others along the way.

Life is not a race, it's not a game, and it's up to us to figure out the difference. There's should be no winners or losers, just the best us for the best us. Don't let others dictate what is best for you, the best you is the best for you. If you don't make yourself the best you, for you, that's a setup for disaster.

When the finish line comes, I'm going to be Matt. I'm going to be the best Matt I can be for me. I try to embrace life and elevate myself everyday. Everyday is a new adventure closer to that finish line, make everyday count!

-Peace and elevate!!